A never ending story

Very Very Busy December

2009-12-05T11:17:00.006+08:00

T.T

As the title post stated, it's gonna be a busy month.

Oh well, so much to do, so little time. ><

1. Finals (I hate finals.... T.T)

2. Make props (Gaara's gourd not even finish ><)

3. CF (Yay! Will probably shop till I drop XP)

4. Photo shooting (Naruto + D Gray man group [ I hope they confirm photo shoot soon ] )

5. Christmas (Haven't bought presents yet O.O)

Oh wells, at least I am looking forward to a special day where I finally turn 2 decades. ><

I feel so old....... =-=

Lesson Learn

2009-10-03T12:17:00.002+08:00

I am so not going to put my wallet behind ever again.

Close Every Door

2009-09-28T15:00:00.003+08:00

Lyrics
JOSEPH
Close every door to me, hide all the world from me
Bar all the windows and shut out the light
Do what you want with me, hate me and laugh at me
Darken my daytime and torture my night

If my life was important I
Would ask will I live or die
But I know the answers lie far from this world

Close every door to me, keep those I love from me
Children of Israel are never alone
For I know I shall find my own peace of mind
For I have been promised a land of my own.

CHILDREN
Close every door to me, hide all the world from me
Bar all the windows and shut out the light

La la la la la la (REPEAT)

JOSEPH
Just give me a number instead of my name
Forget all about me and let me decay
I do not matter
I'm only one person
Destroy me completely then throw me away

If my life were important I
Would ask will I live or die
But I know the answers lie far from this world

Close every door to me keep those I love from me
Children of Israel are never alone
For we know we shall find our won peace of mind
For we have been promised a land of our own

MSG : I seriously need a vacation...

Shadow

2009-09-07T00:57:00.001+08:00

I am tiring to figure what to type as I look at the screen on my laptop. I feel so lost and not wanted. I guess that's why I never liked visiting relatives. They only know how to judge me and put me down. I just being me. Can't you just accept me for me?

Just came back from grandmother's house which is located in Seremban. We were celebrating her birthday. I feel as if I am just a shadow. A thing which follows people around but disappears at night, unnoticed and unwanted.

Saturday night. We celebrate grandmother's birthday at a small restaurant. One of my aunt noticed I have changed a bit (compared to last time I saw her) My aunt said "So long didn't see you, you looked more pretty now." I was like... *bluring* Means I wasn't pretty at all? Grrr.. Anyway, I think she meant when I had blond hair. They said I looked not nice in blond (whatever). One thing about dinner I learned that NEVER drink wine, tea and sparkling juice on the same meal. I nearly puke cause of it. Or was it NEVER drink wine with a gulp. Then again, I do not enjoy wine if I sip it. Anyway, I am so not drinking wine + tea + sparkling juice on a same meal ever again. (Nearly went drunk).

Today, I waited patiently for the cheese cake to be cook. However, when it was ready to be eaten. I was asleep. When I wanted to have some of the cheese cake, it was finish. No one cared whether I had some or not. No one bother asking whether I wanted some. They all assumed that I had eaten. I was angry, sad and brokenhearted. I waited patiently for it. But no one cared to offer me some. I didn't bother to ask why they didn't leave some for me as I know the answer will be 'how would I know?'. So I just walked out the kitchen and sat at the living room and watch TV.

Dad noticed I wasn't in the mood and ask why. I told him about it. Though it may seemed a small matter to most people. Yes, it may be small to a lot of you people. And I know if people talked to me about the same incident, I would say the same too. However I just had to let go what I feel inside. I can't take it the feeling of a shadow for many years. Though at certain situation I would like to but not all the time.

During dinner today, one of my aunt wonder why I was so quiet. No talking to any of my cousins or anyone else. She ask my dad. He told her the reason. She was like "I didn't know she didn't had some." (with her face looking somewhat). "If I knew I would have kept some for you." Yeah right! As if! Looking at your face, it doesn't show. I'm sure you're glad I didn't get some. I ignored her and continue eating dinner. I couldn't wait to go back to KL. I wanted so badly to go as fast as possible. I can't stand to be there feeling like a shadow. And my Psp is not working!!! I don't know what my cousin did, it hang and blackout! Now the games are gone. Going to ask dad to bring me to the shop and ask the guy whether he can fix it.

The point was, it always happen to either side of the family I go. If I'm in dad's side or mom's side, it the same result. Unnoticed, ignored, compared and being treated as if I was the black sheep of the family. Then what is the point of me going to visit them in the 1st place??? I only do that to visit grandfather (mom's dad) and grandmother (dad's mom). Other than that, I don't care much of the other relatives.

I guess that I must learn to adapt to it asap. I can't stand it anymore.

Recently watch a play in church called 'Joseph, The Overcomer' performed by the Performing Arts. Brian was a member in the Performing Art. He was playing the main character Joseph. It was an Awesome Performances. You were great! ^^

Currently like one of the song he sang for the performance. At the moment, it is a very good therapy for my depression. Manage to find the artist name and found this video in youtube. Strangely I didn't notice it was from a cartoon which I love watching it when I was younger.

Lyrics
I thought I did what's right
I thought I had the answers
I thought I chose the surest road
But that road brought me here

So I put up a fight
And told you how to help me
Now just when I have given up
The truth is coming clear

You know better than I
You know the way
I've let go the need to know why
For you know better than I

If this has been a test
I cannot see the reason
But maybe knowing I don't know
Is part of getting through

I try to do what's best
And faith has made it easy
To see the best thing I can do
Is put my trust in you

For You know better than I
You know the way
I've let go the need to know why
For you know better than I

I saw one cloud and thought it was a sky
I saw a bird and thought that I could follow
But it was you who taught that bird to fly
If I let you reach me will you teach me

For You know better than I
You know the way
I've let go the need to know why
I'll take what answers you supply

You know better than I

I'll keep this motto to heart and will always remember. After dark clouds and thunderstorms, you get to see rainbows!

Now finally I let go of every frustration, here you would see the good side so far.

-I got a new study table since my old one was small.
-I got a new cabinet which somehow my mom surprise me that she would actually buy it for me.
-My whole room is painted. It's blue. Cause it remind me of the sky (how much I wanted to fly) and sea (how I love snorkeling).
-I finally have a sugar glider. His name is Zero. He is crabby a lot. I guess that's how sugar glider are when they are in a new environment. Currently he is trying to get some sleep (I thought sugar gliders are active at night and the 1st day, he kept waking me up in the middle of the night).

It's getting late. I guess I'll end here.

God, Please grant me strength. I need them.

Good night.

errr weird?

2009-08-30T22:34:00.000+08:00

Is it just me or everyone who is an adult is worried about my life?

Okay... I shall rephrase, adults worrying about my love life? There I said it. Happy?

Today, my mom told me that my aunt ask her whether I am dating.. or whether I am having a boyfriend. Ok... seriously, I find this weird. When I was 18, she did ask that and no was my answer (since I didn't communicate with my bf at that time over some problems we had and eventually we broke up) . Anyway, my point was, my aunt stated that I was too young to have one (I don't think 18 is too young to have anyway) and now she is like worried that I don't have one and encourage me to have one. So don't you think it is weird? and mom is like encouraging me to have one asap... Honestly speaking, I, seriously no comment on that... why?

Reason being...

I don't want to get hurt again. I don't want to rush a relationship with guys so fast. Though the waiting sometimes hurts, but to have scars that will never heal is worse. I know that the fact mom is worried I don't have one and my aunt is worried that I can't get married early (her daughter is like more than a decade older than me and is still not married) but rushing into things, wouldn't it be bad...?

I don't want to rush into things, because....

I would have the...
- fear that I would hurt the guy's feelings.
- fear that I am not good enough for him.
- fear that I am just taking him for granted.
- fear that I cannot make him happy.
- fear that one day, he'll just leave me for someone who is better than me...

Too much fear after experiencing past relationship has me aware of the things stated above. It even made me started out listing what I want my dream guy to be. I rather let the guy confess first. It would be better that way. I don't want De Ja Vu all over again. I want a guy who love me for being me not who I become. It's for the best for both parties.

I know it's gonna be alright~

2009-08-24T00:11:00.000+08:00

Lyrics
God has given me a window
And I can finally see the light.
And though I felt like going under
I know it's gonna be alright.

God has given me a window
And I can finally see the light.
And though I felt like going under
I know it's gonna be alright.

You know that I've been there
When I couldn't find an open door
And then he consoled me
And showed me what I was looking for.

Bridge:
I just wanna talk the time to say
His love will never go away
And when it's dark no light to see
He brings away
Oh my god has

God has given me a window
And I can finally see the light.
And though I felt like going under
I know it's gonna be alright.

God has given me a window
And I can finally see the light.
And though I felt like going under
I know it's gonna be alright.

I know what your thinking
Its seems that it's too good to be true
But just when I need him
He's known for always coming through.

Bridge:
I just wanna talk the time to say
His love will never go away
And when it's dark no light to see
He brings away
Oh my god has

God has given me a window
And I can finally see the light.
And though I felt like going under
I know it's gonna be alright.

God has given me a window
And I can finally see the light.
And though I felt like going under
I know it's gonna be alright.

God has given me a window
And I can finally see the light.
And though I felt like going under
I know it's gonna be alright.

God has given me a window
And I can finally see the light.
And though I felt like going under
I know it's gonna be alright

I am sorta worried what my results will be (don't remind me about it. I haven't paid the stupid resource fee)... T.T but....

No matter what happens, I know I'm gonna be alright.

I am HAPPY I got new toy! XD
Monster Hunter!!!! Hunt Monsters XD
Thanks Kil for accompanying me to buy it ^w^

CHICKY!!!!

Ps : this chick has noting to do with monster hunter. I just post it up cause it's cute~

Spoilers

2009-07-31T14:34:00.000+08:00

READ AT YOUR OWN RISK.

WARNING TO THOSE WHO HAVEN'T BEEN FOLLOWING UP ON NARUTO EPISODE.

BELOW CONTAIN SPOILERS!

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I THANK GOD THAT GAARA'S OUTFIT DIDNT CHANGE!

ok... I know it is lame for some of you. But for me it's like THANK GOD! There isn't any change!

Cause.....

I dont wanna spend money making another outfit... though it is not really proven that his outfit is totally change. Tenmari and Kankuro's outfit changed. So I was quite worried that Gaara's outfit change too... T.T

The three siblings from Suna. All of them looked like they have new otufit. >< See Gaara's outfit? It's didnt looked as if it change. XD

Again his outfit looked the same ^^

I've made this version of his outfit. Well, the anime one is Maroon. But I made the other colour instead. (This art is not mine.) So I was really happy that his outfit is not change. XD

Oh yea, if you guys were wondering why I don't bother to update. The fact is.... I AM SUPER LAZY TO UPDATE! Even though I have attend to some event and been to some outings. But I am totally lazy to update them. (Then again I rather keep it to myself for certain events XP)
And been busy playing Dragonica and SDO. I cant help it. I'm getting addicted to them. Even though... SDO I cut down after leveling to 21. XP. Dragonica now, I have 2 character which are 22 and 7 ( i think ) I just started it this week. XP

And I shall stop here and continue to become lazy XP

FREEDOM!!!!!

2009-07-06T22:42:00.000+08:00

Free~ Free~ Free~
I am free at last!
I thank God I am Free at last~

Free~ Free~ Free~
I am free at last!
I thank God I am Free at last~

FREE! (I want the whole world to be free)

Haha. I forgotten how the song goes.

FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!!!
WEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
I finish my exams. Now holiday for 6 weeks!!
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
So many things to do... LOL
OMG!!!!

Lalalalalalalala ~

Little Chocobos adventure

2009-06-29T23:18:00.000+08:00

Here yee here yee.

This is a short story about the little chocobos

Little Chocobos decide to travel from world to world. They got bored with being stuck in one world. So they decided to travel and take some pictures with some other people from their world.

First, they met a pair of elegant goth couple.

They travel to Devil May Cry to meet Dante

Chocobos meet a very beautiful LeenaLee in D-Gray Man world. XD

They continue their journey to the Naruto world.

They met Naruto who was in his sage mode. (looked garang)

Gaara, who seemed to like them ^^

They met one of Naruto's sensei, Yamato, who looked er... more annoyed that Naruto >< Tobi, who cant stop hugging them. XD

And Pain (Nagato), who was happy to have them taking picture with.

And the whole group XD

So they travel to their world which is Final Fantasy

They met Rufus first. One chocobo was happily sitting on Rufus' head.

A very cute Yuffie. XD

One chocobo wanted to stick with one of the turks.

Black Mage Chocobo : Nyuuuuu... dont leave me alone T.T

Black Mage chocobo : neh neh white mage chocobo, I had enough adventure. ><
White Mage chocobo : Same here. Let's go back. ><
So they had enough of traveling to the other world and went back to their master's arms.

But...

They didnt know that their master wants to travel to the other worlds

First stop

Chocobos : Oo... D Gray Man world XD

Then Naruto world

Chocobos : *Shiver*
Hikari : oro? what happen to you guys?

Naruto in Gakuen version

The to Final Fantasy world

Chocobos : Kawaii Yuffie XD

Chocobos : Ooooo Barret. ^^

To the other worlds, One piece and Tsubasa Chronicles
Last stop er... Kuro Shuji?

Hikari : You guys looked tired.
Chocobos : we have been travelling. ><
Hikari : hor.... that why you guys suddenly disappear...
Chocobos : Sorrie >< *Yawns*
Hikari : Kk, you guys can rest...

Chocobos : ZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

~The end~

Ps : all of these are random

Animagaki

2009-06-29T00:05:00.000+08:00

I AM BEAT!

Seriously after 2 days event. ><

I got my KAWAII CHOCOBOS! XD Surprised that no one bought it when it was on the booth. And a lot of people didnt see it ><

Bought
Day 1 - Chocobo cosplaying Black mage
Day 2 - Chocobo cosplaying White Mage
Other than that, bought a lot o stuff around the booths. ><

Hm... The events has it's upside and downside.

So let's state the good side of it first :
1. The Hall was great
2. The booths were great.
3. The prizes were great
4.The food were nice
5.The band was great

The downside : 1. One of the person in charge of the games was rude and snobbish
2. The game side was away from the main : reason being stating this is, if the lucky draw number was called but if the person is the other side, cannot hear....
3. Mat step had a problem, it was sorta unfair...

Congratz to Beatbox for 1st placing, Sparda for 2nd placing and one vocaloid cosplayer for 3rd placing. Congratz to Pa-No for getting 3rd for art competition. Congratz to Cutie for getting to top 3 for group Karaoke (sorry, I dont know what placing you got). Congratz to the Final Fantasy 7 Team for getting champion for group cosplay.

Enough talking about the event, here are some photos XD Day 1

Double Tobis?

Tamaki Suoh

Shikamaru

Shino

Naruto in Sage mode

Tobi and Sasori

Naruto group picture

Day 2

Vincent and Rufus

Naruto and Sakura

Naruto Vs Pain (Nagato)

Goth family

Hikari and Miyuki

Family

Superman pose

Egyptian style

Squeal to the next post XD

Chocobos XD

Happy?

2009-06-15T21:12:00.000+08:00

Should I be finally happy that the 2 wallpaper project madness is gone? But... now... THREE FREAKING LOGOS TO MAKE!!!!! NYUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So here are some of the design I made.

Kanda's communication device.
This was my first design which I copied using Illustrater

My Sakura wallpaper

My Chibi Gaara

My first butterfly color

My butterfly with other color

My rainbow wallpaper

So, I finally got my new glasses. XD Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. The nerdy type. Hahaha. Mom wondered why I wanted that type of design. I told her, I just wanna look like a nerd. Obviously got hidden agenda. Muahahahhahahahhahahahahha. It's almost the same design as Gaara's in Konoha Gakuan. XD

Oh my gosh. I love my parents! XD They are so supportive in my cosplaying. ^^ I told my mom I wanted a new cosplay outfit for this year group with I joined another one other than Naruto and she suprisingly agreed. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Then I decided I show her a list of cosplays I wanna buy. And she agreed to that too. But have to wait la. Cannot rush to buy all. ><
Gaara - Kazekage, his battle outfit and his Suna casual wear. That's (3) XD
Roxas - Casual and Organization 13 (2)
Kanda - Version 1, Version 2, Version 3(maybe), Casual, Yukata, Training (6)
Aerith - FF7 Outfit, and Kingdom Hearts 2 outfit (2)
Lightning - Battle Outfit)
Honey - School uniform (1)
Agito 13 - School uniform (1)
Lavi - Verison 1 and Version 3 (2)
Agito - Black outfit (1)
Hiei - Black outfit (1)
Cissnie n Elena - Black outfit (1) [Hm... dont really need to but since I have their outfit]
Vampire Night, Maria Kurenai - Night class outfit (1)

Total : 22 XD

Hahaha. Will cosplay them when the time is right XD.
Ps: OMG! so much to spend ><

RANDOM!

2009-06-10T23:48:00.000+08:00

THIS POST IS RANDOM! XD

Sparda doing the Para-para XD

Azreal doing the Para para ^^

Tee hee

Ps : dont kill me ><

Tagged by Vivian and Kazu

2009-06-09T19:07:00.000+08:00

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: 100 plus
2. Last phone call: Belle
3. Last text message: Sparda
4. Last song you listened to: The Best Thing (Avalon)
5. Last time you cried: Last few months

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: oro?
7. Been cheated on: Yes
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Never did.
9. Lost someone special: Yes, years ago
10. Been depressed: Too many times
11. Been drunk and threw up: Never did

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Matelic Green
13. Black.
14. White

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: A lot ^^
16. Fallen out of love: Dont wanna believe yet until I met someone who can complete my list
17. Laughed until you cried: Er... dont remember.
18. Met someone who changed you: Yes.
19. Found out who your true friends are: Yep
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yep. dont care
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: A lot.

23. How many kids do you want to have: 2 XD
24. Do you have any pets: Rabbit ^^
25. Do you want to change your name: I like my name ^^
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Celebrate with parents XD
27. What time did you wake up today: 8.30 am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Online XD
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Too many to name

30. Last time you saw your Mother: Just now
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: my life
32. What are you listening to right now: Anime XD
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Nope
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Some people think that they are so great but in reality they are not.
35. Most visited webpage: my blog, Cf forum, facebook
36. What's your real name: Esther Ong
37. Nicknames: Ster, darkiris, Iris, hikari,

38. Relationship Status: Available
39. Zodiac sign: Sagittarius, and Snake
40. Male or female: Female
41. Elementary School: Tadika Pui Ling
42. Middle School: Sekolah Rendah Sri Sempurna
43. High school/college: Sekolah Menengah sri Sempurna
44. Hair colour: Black, Sliver, Brown, Light brown, dark brown
45. Long or short: Medium
46. Height: 155cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone: Now? NO
48: What do you like about yourself: Too many to name
49. Piercings: Dont have
50. Tattoos: Dont have
51. Righty or lefty: Righty but I was born a lefty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: Standard 4
53. First piercing: Dont have
54. First best friend: Standard 3
55. First sport you joined: Ping Pong
56. First vacation: Too long to remember
58. First pair of trainer: Dont remember

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating: Just had dinner, dad's cooking
60. Drinking: Water XD
61. I'm about to: watch anime and chat with friends ^^
62. Listening to: Anime
63. Waiting on: the coming event XD

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids: yep ^^
65. Get Married: Yes!
66. Career: Psychologist

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Both
68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs
69. Shorter or taller: Taller
70. Older or Younger: Younger
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Both?
73. Sensitive or loud: Both
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: No way, unless he is some handsome hunk ^^
77. Drank hard liquor: no... never
78. Lost glasses/contacts: got
79. Sex on first date: never
80. Broken someone's heart: I think I had
82. Been arrested: No
83. Turned someone down: Yes.
84. Cried when someone died: Yeah

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Yes ^^
87. Miracles: Yes
88. Love at first sight: never want to believe that
89. Heaven: Yeah.
90. Santa Claus: never did
91. Kiss on the first date: Never did
92. Angels: yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 boyfriend/girlfriend at a time: nope
95. Did you sing today: No
96. Ever cheated on somebody: no
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go: Back to standard one
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be: CF day ^^
99. Are you afraid of falling in love: yes
100. Posting this as 100 truths: I have done this before....

Tagged:
whoever is reading this

Random XD

2009-06-08T20:23:00.000+08:00

Hahaha. Yes. According to the title, this post will be so random. I have noting better to. Will just post up some random pictures. Muahahahahhahahahahahahhahahhahahhahahahahhahahahahaahhahahahahahahahaha.

This is the creation of what my group (the six of us) did for intro to design class. XD

On one outing where Sparda was trying to break the glass floor XD

Part of the Rubix cube >< The base of the Rubix cube of 5 X 5 (if you guys are wondering, the pieces came out so I dismantled it to fix it ><) The other pieces ><I present to you the complete Rubix cube 5 X 5 XD

Oh yes, and one day, Jian fell asleep in class. Muahahahahahha

And my new Mokona XD

A poem...

2009-05-31T00:18:00.000+08:00

I don’t understand why;

As the days pass by;

Why sometimes I feel the need to cry;

I can’t find the reason why.

Everyone gives me the cold stare;

Which I don’t think I can bear;

This feeling is very rare;

But why do I even care?

People are avoiding me;

Why must this be?;

How can they judge me for just being me?;

How can they say I am abnormal when I am just being me?

I am me;

I am who I want to be;

Why can’t anyone see?

I just want to be free.

People think I am going insane;

But how can they tell that I am feeling this pain;

What is there to gain;

For calling people name.

I feel so depress;

My life is in a mess;

That I need to de-stress;

How can I make myself impress;

As each day goes by;

I feel every need to cry;

I can’t tell from feeling right nor wrong;

Is this feeling making me strong?

I am so confused;

Which one should I choose;

To be what people want me to be;

Or be someone I want myself to be;

I can’t take it anymore;

This feeling is going to be sore;

It’s going to touch the core

Will there be more?

I feel so much pain;

That I think I am going insane;

How am I going to express this pain;

When there is nothing to gain.

People suggested to me to go see a psychologist;

Who are able to lead me out from the mist;

Who are able to tell what is wrong with me

Who are able to identify what the problem might be.

From what I know, psychologists would say they understand;

Would every one of them call the way I fell this a trend?

But why some people are ban;

For having a will to stand.

I took people’s suggestion to meet with a psychologist;

Whom they say he/she can lead of my mist;

The psychologist asks me what is wrong with me;

I told him everything there is to see.

He thought a while;

I feel as if I was in a trial;

Because I was so tensed up;

With everything that might turn up.

The psychologist smiled at me;

I wonder what it could be;

He told me that I am facing a problem;

Like people would categorize it like an emblem.

I deny that I have a problem;

And blame him that was his problem;

I know myself better than anyone else;

Who else would know me better than myself?

I guess I was wrong;

I thought just knowing and believing in myself would make me strong;

I needed someone to hear me out;

To be able to understand what I am facing through is all about.

The psychologist has made it clear;

Of everything I wanted to hear;

My symptom was just depression;

Nothing more than a mere distraction.

I guess all I ever wanted was attention;

It all started with a mere detection;

Of having abandon by someone I love;

Whom I badly wanted to serve.

I know now that I am not only who feels this way;

There are many people who feel the same way;

Some succeed in overcoming their symptoms;

Like sewing on a button.

Other may not succeed at all;

But it is better to try then to fail and lose all;

Otherwise there is no point of living where life will be full of pain;

This is something I do not want to gain.

I guess everything has a price to pay;

Obstacles will come in my way;

I will look forward for a new day;

That’s I have to say.

Ps : did this for assignment ><

Tagged by Sachiko and kazu

2009-05-29T22:18:00.000+08:00

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed

-The cheeks, hand, forehead

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?

-Tired. wanna sleep back..

3. Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?

-a few people... dont remember

4. Would you considered yourself spoiled?

-Maybe...

5. Will you ever donate blood?

-No... mom doesn't allow

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?

-Yeah I do

7. Do you want someone to be dead?

-Probably.. then again I dont wanna think about it.

8. What does your last text message say?

-Yeah...

9. What are you thinking right now?

-I hate doing this stupid tag.... (well, I did it before if I am not wrong)

10. Do you want someone to be with you right now?

-I dont know... can anime character come to life? if they can, then I want

11. What was the time you went to bed last night?

-12 something

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?

-buy from school..

13. Is someone on your mind right now?

-Not really...

14. Who was the last person to text you?

-Azreal

TEN lucky People to do this quiz

1. Sparda

2. Belle

3. Jian

4. Azreal

5. Nightress

6. Aleanor

7. Vin

8. Rachel

9. Valerie

10. I lazy tag...

15. Who is no. 2 having relationship with?

- her pillow?

16. Is no. 3 a male or a female?

-Male

17. If no. 1 and no.7 get together , would it be good?

-WTH!! That will never happen. That is so not going to happen. I'll go crazy if that happen.

18. What is no.1 studying about?

-Working?

20. Is no. 4 single?

-No, he is taken.

21. Say something about no. 2

-A very nice twin who understand me XD

22. What do you think of no. 3 and no.6 being together?

-That will be so weird... and never going to happen. So forget about that question...

23. Describe no.9

-A very nice girl XD

24. What will you do if no. 6 and no.7 fight?

-Impossible. They will not fight...

25. Do you like no. 5?

- My nee-chan XD sure like >w<

CLEAN!

2009-05-23T22:03:00.000+08:00

Yay! My room is finally clean. Took me hours to clean it. And I rearrange my whole room again. I tend to do it every sem. Dad kept on laughing at me for changing the arrangement every sem. Mom too laughed about it but was amazed that I could move all the furniture by myself.

This is part of my room

My messy bed

My other part of the room.

FINAL RESULT! XD

My collection of soft toys XD

My other ones (Picture dark I know... phone camera)

The is part of my collection XD (Last time picture)

I shall end here. XD I leave it to your imagination on how soft toys I have. >w<

I am me,
I am who I want to be,
Why can't anyone see?
I just want to be free.

C2AGE 2009

2009-05-17T14:05:00.000+08:00

C2AGE this year turn out better than the last one. There were more booths, cosplayers, and people! But I really pity those booth who were behind... It's like they can't enjoy the event. Sad... But Overall the event was okay. (I just wished the MC and Gamemaster know how to play chess so some poor of us pieces dont die so easily...><). I took long time to get dress for Gaara's cosplay. Cause the hair took an hour to get it done!!! ><Yusuke : You looked like a pastor! XD *snap picture*

Me : ....

Sakura, Tsunade, Naruto and Gaara

Group photo taken outside for the Straits Times

Gaara and Shizune

Photo shoot XD

Naruto

Sakura
Gaara

Shino

Shizune

Gaara Vs Sakura

Random shots

Look alike?

Master Roshi : I got hair! XD

Master Roshi : I am so sexy

Gaara : Big Frog Purse! Naruto! I want !!!
Naruto : Gaara dont need purse... >< Future Hokage

Yuuki : Wah a flower for me?
Prince of Darkness : Anything for a lovely lady like you.

Aki is looking real pissed

Aki is not pleased that her prince of darkness is with another girl.

Assasin?

Well, I think I'll stop here for now. I have no idea what else I want to put. However I'll make one story out of some photos of my Gaara's pictures (Ideas kept popping out). If I can manage to make it that is....

Ps : I like making caption. So dont mind me. Credits for taking photo goes to Chia Wei, Yusuke and Kazu

Tagged by Sachiko

2009-05-15T23:03:00.000+08:00

What do you have:
[ ] Step-Father
[ ] Step-Mother
[ ] Step Sister
[ ] Step Brother
[ ] Brother :one... and always bully me
[ ] Brother In Law
[ ] Sister
[ ] Sister In Law
[ ] Half sister
[ ] Half brother
[*] Nephew
[*] Niece
[ ] Boyfriend/ Girlfriend
[*] Mobile phone
[ ] Own bathroom
[*] Own room
[ ] Have/had a swimming pool
[ ] Have/had a hot tub
[* ] Guest room
[*] Living Room : lol...?
[ ] Own computer : laptop counted?
[ ] Own TV

Total so far: 6

[ ] Full size/Queen bed
[*] More than 8 pairs of shoes : lol?
[*] MP3 Player/iPod
[*] PS1/2/3 : ps1 and 2... both need to repair... T.T
[ ] Nintendo DS or PSP
[*] Gameboy/Advance : i dun really touch it...
[ ] Gamecube
[ ] xbox/ xbox 360
[ ]Wii
[*]Own Laptop

Total so far: 11

[ ] Basketball net/hoop
[ ] Air hockey table
[ ] Pool table
[*] Ping pong table
[ ] Foosball table

Total so far: 12

[ ] night stand
[ ] Stereo in bedroom: its BLACK
[*] DVD player in bedroom/portable

Total so far: 13

[*]Go shopping at least once a week :cnt stand without shoppin
[ ] Expensive cologne/perfume
[*] AIM/MSN: lol.... sure got la...
[*] camera on phone: got that too

Total so far: 16

[ ] Go Cart/car/quad
[ ]Guitar/drums/bass guitar: 2 guitars?
[*] Piano/Keyboard: piano
[*] Any other instrument :violin, recorder, harmonica XD
[*] Been on a cruise: once
[*] Traveled out of the country
[ ] Traveled out of the continent
[ ] Had a personal trainer
[*] Expensive jewelry: cost me a bomb
[*] Met a Celeb : someone... forgotten... so long ago....

Total so far: 22

[ ]Straightener/curling iron
[ ]Have been to a batting cage
[ ] Have $100 on you right now in cash at your house
[*] Credit card or ATM card or debit card or bank card : secret
[ ] Have a TV in your room
[*] Mirror in your room: obviously
[*] Window in your room: that one also obvious...

Total so far: 25

[ ] Been to Paris
[ ] Been to Rome
[ ] Been to Hawaii
[ ] Been to Mexico
[ ] Been to Jamaica

Total so far: 25

[*] Parents have a car : some old toyota brand... i dunno
[ ] Have owned or own a Jet ski/boat
[*] Had/have Camped : yep XD
[*] Been to 3+ states : more than 3
[*] 100+ buddies on facebook/myspace/friendster : dunno what number is it now...

Total so far: 29

[ ] Home cooked meal almost everyday: my grandma's cooking rawks
[ ] Been in a limo
[ ] Been in a helicopter
[*] Own a camera : very cacat one...
[ ] Have been to Disneyland/World more than 2 times

Total: 30

Post as:1-25 = Humble! (and tag 5 people)
26-40= Average (and tag 10 people)
:41-50 = Spoiled Teen! (and tag 15 people)
51+ = Upper Class Snob! (and tag 20 people)

I tag:
whoever who want to do this... I lazy tag...

Happy Mother's Day

2009-05-10T22:41:00.000+08:00

Happy Mother's Day to Mommy and to all mothers in the world. XD

Meet the seniors + ping pong sport carnival

2009-05-09T20:57:00.000+08:00

I and Belle volunteered for the mentor, to lead the new juniors. They were a great batch to be with. They did awesomely well through out the whole game XD Even manage to win second place. >w<>< onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_SnfegxKisaI/SgV2RvuZeJI/AAAAAAAAAsw/v7QWu_f0DH8/s1600-h/2865_74178426585_711411585_1910499_141976_n.jpg">

This is one of the station XD

1st Runner up XD

Well, long story cut short, Psychology department won 1st runner up. We stood a chance to win champion, however I sorta screw the last point which we could dunce (if we win this match, then mix double can play and probably was able to win) ><>w<

New Obsession

2009-05-05T18:25:00.000+08:00

LOL!

I am so obsess with the character Yu Kanda from D-Gray Man. He so freaking cool and HOT! Haha.

First version outfit and one of his cool pose XD

Second version outfit

His third version outfit
From the manga =3

Enjoying soba

Group picture

One of his casual wear

My new cosplay plan! YU KANDA!

Back from camp

2009-05-04T18:25:00.000+08:00

So finally another post.

Hm... well, noting much to talk about the camp. All I ever did was babysit children, play with them, eat, sleep and a lot of fishing. Speaking of fishing, this was my first time. I have manage to catch only three fishes. Not that bad since this was my 1st time fishing. I forgotten to take picture of my first catch. So here is the second one.

Puffer fish

Second picture

My third catch - Catfish

I went fishing a lot during the camp until I got my hand sunburns. LOL. Didn't bother to take much picture during the camp. What I did most is fishing. I have decided to make a hobby. XD

Sem break

2009-04-23T00:02:00.000+08:00

Today is my 1st day of my sem break. I can't believe I woke up at 12.30pm today. >.<>w<

Exams tomorrow. >.<

2009-04-15T23:35:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!!

Exams is tomorrow...
I hope to do well...
*Cross fingers*